The Psychologist

The Psychologist

These words

These manifestations of my thoughts transformed

Transmuted into sound waves

Are gonna take you out of your comfort zone, I’m sorry

Nah I’m lying

I ain’t sorry

Why would I when I’m just sharing my pain

Can you feel me?

Of course you do

I’ll say things to make you like me

It’s scary the way I can look into your eyes and slip into your psyche

Now we’re finishing each other’s sentences

Now you like me

Get it?

I’ll judge you quietly, silently

And adjust you without you knowing

The timbre in my voice will alter your body chemistry

The look in my eyes will fire your synapses

My posture will affect yours

My expressions will disarm you

Shock you

Now you’re mine

You like me, and you like it

Remember this…

No you won’t

My laughter is amnesia

My wit is an aphrodisiac

Come kick it with me

And you come ‘cause you never met a creature so…

Intriguing – flashes through you

So you Nancy Drew-ing

Sleuthing this anomaly

Is that all she wrote?

I can speak any language fluently

Without uttering a word

Call me cocky and egotistical

Damn right

It’s my right

If I’m not then who will for me?

Word

Let’s converse

On or off topic we still on topic

I walk the road of a psychologist

Call it psycho-path

My hero is a villain named psychomantis

Let me tell you things about you

Yea that’s me standing outside that locked door in your darkest places

It’s been only 5 minutes

Disturbing isn’t it?

The truth usually is

So I’ll lie again

Its ok…smile, the public’s watching

You know they happy when we smile right

Let’s not disturb their fragile existence

Their happiness is like glass

Transparent and fragile

Here hold my hand and follow

Fighting is pointless

The monster is unstoppable

But I’ll show you the strings and how to pull ‘em

Here’s the buttons this is how you push ‘em

Smile and wave

Do a little dance

Show that strength even when you weak

Be ignant when you have too

Stubborn when necessary

Walk with independence and a dose of pride

Pay no mind

And rock aloof like Versace

Soon you’ll have them

Like how I’ve got you

Kiss my palm

I kiss your eyelids

My heart beat

You sigh

So tantric

Go to sleep

Allow this to register

In the morning you’ll be scared to talk to me

You’ll play back all that I’ve said

And you’ll scrutinize me to see if I’m trying to get into your head

But I won’t

I’m already there.

Glen Toussaint 2013©

Rant Rage Release

Rant Rage Release

I want to get into some type of trouble

This life is full of a lot of shit that just fuck with people mind

My mindset is shifting and I’m falling into jigsaw pieces

If I smoked weed I would have gone through enough blunts to make me short

My vision is broken

And I’m beyond tired

So fucking tired of just trying to live

Existing is so fucking hard

So expensive

Your blood is currency

The social economic elements are like cyanide

So we soak in our deaths trying to live

Trying to

Trying to

Why the fuck must we try to

When we should just

A flexible malleable brain trying to wrap around

My heart is in pain

My lungs just wanna collapse

I’m tired of trying

Tired of fighting

The factors in these equations are the reasons

Why guns stay loaded barrels still smoking

There seems to be no light at the end of my tunnel

So I say fuck it

I’ll drink that

I’ll smoke that

I’ll fuck her, and her, and her, and her

Sweat and cum all the fluids in me

Then go for a long swim in the Caribbean sea so that this salty tourist elixir

Will wash away my sins

Cause God and me not on talking terms

I feel like crying sometimes

Just curl up in a corner n off load like one of my kids

I don’t know to cope

But I can’t show it

And you can’t stop either

Even on vacation

The 2 weeks your ass gets for working 11.5 months

I’m angry

I’m frustrated

I got so much shit and not enough toilet paper

So I rant while listening to music

And wonder if I commit every sin

Will you forgive me?

Will Jehovah

Ra

Odin

Zeus

Shiva

Vishnu

Buddha

So I’ll just scream and rage

Cause even though we so free we can’t BREATHE

Cant say that

Cant do this

Cant feel that

Cant wear that

Cant cant cant

Till we get high blood pressure, hyperventilate and pop an aneurism

But u should be this

Say this

Do this

Get this

Till your constipated and asphyxiate and expire

Fuckkkkk

FUCK FUCK FUCK

Don’t tell me about prayers

And anger management

That I gotta be an example for the kids

That decent ppl don’t go on so

Express your motherfucking self

Do you

Then get shot down tied up and labeled

Yea that’s him

Yea that’s her

Yea that’s them

And life continues

While I bear every other’s burdens plus mine

While I die inside while living on the outside

While I stifle emotions

Watch my mouth

Watch my behavior

Follow the rules

Wasn’t I the good boy?

Didn’t I listen to my parents?

I never did drugs

I never got drunk

Never rude to elders

I didn’t eat my veggies

But I read books instead of tv

So what d fuck

This world of man design is killing me

My wings not even broken

They never were allowed to grow

Yet we’re supposed to be happy

Being creatures who just get by like cattle

Bleeding to death

As this fucked up society continues on and on

Grinding us under the wheel

So like an abused wife we just gotta shut up and take it

Lie there and take it

Be quiet and take it

Bend over and take it

To be penalized constantly

While they Dracula our ass.

So you know what??!!!???

Fuck you!!!!

Fuck you!!!!

And yes I will teach my sons and daughter to say fuck you too

Cause they ain’t gonna be sheep and cattle

And if I catch fire for this

Then motherfucker Flame On

Chupz

Glen Toussaint 2013©